MOM is on the left, Rest in peace

Today is March 30th 2010 and a changing day in my life cause the effects of alcohol has just killed my mother-in-law after years struggling with the illness of alcoholism and she thought she had a whipped after years a sobriety.

Mom was the oldest sister a 6 children her family, 3 girls, 6 boys, from the Philipines, she retire from UCLA 1997 as lab tech and lost her husband to diabetes in 2001, this women was one of the strongest women I had the pleasure to have in my life.

She took ill and was rushed to emergency at Little Company of Mary in Torrance , CA about 6 weeks ago, she was diagnosed with an infection in her abdomen in the form a large abscess and was under going treatment and looked as she was be going home in 2 weeks but after a week her insurance company demanded she in transferred to UCLA Santa Monica Medical Center or they would not pay for any of the treatment and canceled, this is where things started go wrong and backwards.

UCLA Santa Monica started there treatment and said the LCM was giving her the wrong drugs and there made changes to her treatment, the drugs made her delirious and she could not talk, the doctors said it was a side effect of the drugs, after a week their sent her to a nursing home to recover but after a couple of days and more test they found she required surgery to repair the tear in the colon and that was 8 days ago, I saw her pn Sunday (3-28-2010) and she looked good other than the drain in her nose, All she wanted was to go Home

Thing looks ok last night where my wife , brother-in-law went to see her and for all good reason there was no cause for alarm, but that dreaded phone rang at 3:30am this morning to say her had to pulse and they tried revive her, SHE DIED at 4:30am March 30, 2010

Please if you struggle with an addiction I have seen what the illness can do to someones body.

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I have the honor of hosting a party every year for the past 11 years on the 4th of July in the south bay area that grows every year, Families, Friends and just come down and play and let their children play and have fun and Celebrate this beautiful countries independence day, have something to eat and just sit around and watch the grass grow.

Activities are Volleyball, playing catch (baseball, football, etc), Horse Shoes (portable) Crockett, take a dip in the pool, people watch.

The one activity that has really taken off is the portable horse pit I created, this is designed to let anyone play horse shoe on the grass, I had this brainstorm one year my bother and I where playing and getting so frustrated that the shoes would hit the grass and just bounce and roll around and skip all over the place even rolling and hitting people, I thought that if we could create something that could contain the game.

I came up with the ”MockaZOOM portable horseshoe pit” that can be setup in 10 minutes, I have a prototype made from simple supplies from my local hardware store, if you would like to make your own please let me know and I can send you the diagram for building, I’m also in the process of designing them to be rented, That is the purpose of this article I would like to know if people like it and would rented these portable horseshoe pit kinda like the portable bouncers for parties, the only thing someone would need to have would be a supplies of sand (or we could supply it for them) and at the end of your playing time the sand is then racked into the grass which also serves as an aerator. I have posted a couple picture of these pit being played,

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As the drivers in the Pepsi 400 revved their engines last weekend and prepared for the difficulties of Daytona Raceway, there were millions of drivers in the United States preparing to face what they believe are the same challenges.

Some are older drivers. Some are newly licensed drivers. Some are average drivers faced with stressful situations.

They all have something in common: Millions of drivers daily face anxiety behind the wheel that can limit their driving skills and contribute to the likelihood of accidents, University of Florida researchers have concluded.

“As we become more anxious, we also become more easily distracted when driving,”

“As this happens, we tend to focus on a lot of others things behind the wheel and become somewhat scatterbrained.”

In a study to be published this spring in the Journal of Sport and Exercise Psychology, Rick used results obtained from a race-car simulation to suggest that increased anxiety leads to performance deterioration while behind the wheel

The study required 48 college-age participants to drive on a simulated race course while reacting to lights in their peripheral visual field. An eye-tracking system determined what participants were looking for while driving. Anxiety was induced in some participants and was monitored by tests before the driving simulation and by a heart-rate monitor during the experiment. The study used only female drivers; research has shown males are less likely to report emotions such as anxiety, which would distort the results, Janelle said.

Anxiety was induced before the experiment by a variety of methods, including telling the drivers they were being filmed, their performances were far below average and they were competing for a $100 prize, based on the best performance time.

As higher levels of anxiety were achieved, the participants’ ability to identify peripheral lights became slower and less accurate. The drivers also became more likely to miss important cues and to crash on the simulated road course.

“As we increased stress levels in the participants, they actually had to make a fixation to the peripheral cues to determine whether they were relevant or irrelevant,” Janelle said. “They’re taking their fixation point away from the road, so the incidents of having to look at the cues increase dramatically in a high-anxiety situation.”

Anxiety is likely to affect everyone at one time or another, Janelle said. Even Bobby Allison, third on the all-time list of NASCAR lifetime wins with 84, said anxiety has come into play in his career.

“Early on in my driving career, I had some anxiety,” he said. “It certainly affected how comfortable I felt driving.”

Janelle said average drivers are even more likely to be affected by anxiety. Young drivers who have just gotten their licenses tend to be anxious because they are unfamiliar behind the wheel. More experienced drivers tend to experience anxiety in the form of “road rage” or after nerve-wracking situations such as near-accidents.

However, the likelihood of elderly drivers becoming involved in anxiety-related accidents is higher than that for the average population, said Robert Singer, chairman of the department of exercise and sport sciences and Janelle’s adviser on the study.

“There’s a lot of research to indicate that as we get older, there’s a slowing-down in the information-processing system,” he said. “If you couple that with anxiety or a situation where you’re presented with obstacles, the elderly have a better chance of being impaired, simply because their systems are not as fine-tuned as those of younger people.”

Allison, a three-time Daytona 500 winner, turns 61 this year and has noticed the effect that age has had on his driving.

“I think that certainly I’ve noticed that I have to pay attention more to what I’m doing constantly rather than being as casual about it as I have been,” he said. “As we get older, these things tend to go downhill a little bit. You always need to stay alert and aware, and you need to be confident going into any action you do while driving.” Get help Here

Together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life. People don’t take me seriously. They take strokes, heart attacks even diabetes seriously. Fools! Without my help these things would not be possible. I am such a hated disease and yet I do not come uninvited. You choose to have me.

So many have chosen me over reality and peace..More than you hate me I hate all of you who have a 12 step program. Your program, Your meeting, Your Higher Power…all of these things weaken me, and I can’t function in the manner that I am accustomed to. Now, I must lie here quietly, You don’t see me, but I am growing . When you only exist, I may live and when you live I may only exist but I am here. And, until we meet again, if we meet again, I wish you death and suffering. Just for today, I wish to say goodbye old friend.

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I do not consider myself “different” in my quest to stay clean and sober, if I isolate myself from other alcoholics and from contact with my Higher Power (which I call God). If I feel isolated with an Alcohol Free Society, it is not others responsiblity. It is something I’ve created by feeling I’m “different” but through the work and the a fellow I have met I now know today that I am not allow. Today I practice being just another alcoholic in the worldwide Fellowship of Alcoholics around the world.

We all know that the Haiti people have had an amazingly bad ordeal to go through with that huge earthquake and it wonderful that everyone has given so generously they really need the help, On another note I do understand how government has all this surplus money’s to give in support when in the state of this country today, the jobless, Homeless and people killing them selfs,  Why does our government not help the people of skid row and all the folk that are living on the street of america the RICHES country in the world, (ya right) Please chime in on this

“With the help of our mutual Higher Power I comment to you, that I will not drink or use and I will stay clean and sober all day and all day long I will brag about the things I bitch about”

It’s a great way to start a New day, so please use this with another addict.

Have a safe and clean and sober day

She was got out of rehab and got hih 3 days after getting out, but went to www.intherooms.com to get some help so I offered myself to her and now I’m her online sponsor and told her to get a live one in the PA area, I really hope she stay clean (H) addict, tough stuff as I have no idea cause I’m in AA.  have a great day and God Bless everyone out there on the web for helping others. Help your Husband

 As the days pass in my program., I ask God to guide my thoughts and the words that I speak. In this labor of continuous participation,  So I often ask God to help me watch over my thoughts to keep on the road to recovery, that they may be the true and proper reflections of the Alcohol Free Social Life  program; to focus my aspirations once again to seek His guidance; to help me be truly kind and loving, helpful and healing, yet always filled with humility, and free from any trace of arrogance.

Today I may very well have to deal with disagreeable attitudes or utterances — the typical stock-in-trade attitude of the still-suffering alcoholic. If this should happen, I will take a moment to center myself in God, so that I will be able to respond from a perspective of composure, strength and sensibility.

The way our “worthy” alcoholics have sometimes tried to judge the “less worthy” is, as we look back on it, rather comical. Imagine, if you can, one alcoholic judging another!

Who am I to judge anyone? When I first entered into stopping drinking I found that I liked the freedom it gave me. After all, This was going to help me to a better way of life without alcohol. The reality was that I couldn’t possibly like myself but this is the learning curve as I go through this change in my life, I’ve learned to love myself and  just do what this program say it do. That person in the mirror, may be  God’s  chose to give me the guidance I need for today. I must always remember to place my principles above all personalities. go ahead and try it, I today have a Alcohol Free Social Life